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| 2006 Lisa R 25- Lisa B 40- Kelly L 31 2007 Katie K 22 - Melanie M 32 - Kim B 25- Mary H 19- Lauri L 37 2008 Tina J 22- Kylee H 33- Jessica S 23- Emily 25- Julie H 38- Deanna 25- Megan 22 2009 Michelle P Another year and I'm still single. I dated a girl named Rachel around halloween but nothing ever came of it. The good news is I'm dating her best friend Michelle now. Sweet girl, smart as a bag of hammers but I kinda like that. I also dated Ashlee 23 around Christmas. She is a dancer for the Omaha beef and super hot. A little on the wierd side so pretty much had to let that go. Also got Jen and single L on the line but I think I'm going to move on. I want to date Sarah! She is super hot, but I don't know if she has any interest. I'm trying to lose weight but can't seem to get it done. I get my new sofa tomorrow. YAY! | | |
| I have not written on this log for a while and I don't know why. Reading past entries reminded me of how I felt and it was a nice reminder that I am living. This past month I started a relationship with Deanna (25) and suspect she is married. She came over and had sex with me late in the evening and quickly left like she was late for something. She is never available until the last minute and never responds to my txt until a half hour later or so. Says she can't get involved with me now but would like to in the future. Hmmmm..... Has to be married. Mom has really had trouble this past month. She alternates between telling her kids that she hates us and then the next day loves us. I pray for her. I met a new girl Rachel (26) this weekend and she seems nice. She was afraid I wouldn't call her but I did last night. We will see where this leads us. She isn't the hottest girl or skinniest girl I've gone out with so she will have to wow me with her personality. Who knows, maybe I'll fall madly in love with her. | | |
| There are some days when it seems the whole world is in love with me. Last night was one of those nights. I went out dancing and I had 5 different women want to dance with me. I had couple of them who I am going to go out with. It seems like every woman I talked to last night wanted my attention. I didn't even have to pursue them, they came to me! I needed a night like that. It's a huge ego boost and lets me know that there is a chance I won't spend the rest of my life alone. | | |
| I play pool with this young man named John. He is a seemingly normal guy. He wins some and loses some. He has a reasonably easy time meeting the opposite sex. He is only 22. John is a passionate man who sometimes loses his temper. He works hard and likes to drink with his friends. He is close to family and doesn't seem to have any troubles. No where in this inventory of personality traits and behavior did I ever see him killing himself this weekend. I wasn't really close to him, but I can't help but think of him hanging himself in his garage. I wonder why... I wonder if he thought of his sisters before he took his own life? Why didn't he tell anyone he was struggling emotionally? I feel sick. I've noticed that I've been depressed the last few days and I can't help but think of how upset his family must be. I didn't go to his funeral today, it would only depress me more and I in no way could cheer up family and friends. I hope I forget what happened. | | |
| My whirlwind romance is over. I couldn't be with a jesus freak after all. I somehow thought it wouldn't matter. I was just too giddy in the nector of love to care what extreme religious views J had. I think I should be more upset than I am over this break up, but really I think I might be relieved. I think I was completely full of shit to her. It almost scares me how I could morph my personality to such a degree that would make her think I'm something I'm not. It's not that I lied to her, it's just that I showed her a facet of my personality that let's say represents 2% of my total being and made it look like 50%. I think my biggest fear was that she would want to marry me one day. OMG, that would have been hell. All in all I have a very high opinion of J. She is beautiful and smart and has a very kind heart. I hope she finds the man she wants. I apparently, am not it. | | |
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